New Clothes and Melting

So huzza, my flatmate went home on Tuesday and isn’t back until Friday, so guess who gets to girl out for the next few days? That’s right, me! So I’m very happy. My clothes arrived on Tuesday and my makeup arrived on Wednesday albeit in three different deliveries even though they were all from the same place. So that was a little annoying cause it ate in to Keira time. Turns out that I’m even too scared to let deliverymen see me in girls clothes. So that’s something I’m going to have to work on. Thought I was quite relieved that I wasn’t girl-ing out as two workmen arrived to fit heat detectors, which took about an hour so I’m quite glad I wasn’t in girl mode, as that would have been a little too stressful for me to handle. So I mentioned in my last post that applied fake nail and that they drastically slowed down my typing speed a frustrating amount. Well good news, I’m still wearing them as I write this. Turns out I just needed a bit of practice.

So the new additions to my wardrobe, I’m happy with some and a little disappointed with others, but I guess you’re always going to run that risk when you buy stuff online and can’t try them on first.

I've wanted a pair of red heels for ages and now I finally have some!

I’ve wanted a pair of red heels for ages and now I finally have some!

I just cropped this photo from the website as I'm currently wearing them and couldn't be bothered taking them off for a picture. I really like how they look on and the fit well.

I just cropped this photo from the website as I’m currently wearing them and couldn’t be bothered taking them off for a picture. I really like how they look on and the fit well.

Yeah, I'm quite disappointed with these leggings, they don't fit very well, the glossy material fits very loosely which I don't like.

Yeah, I’m quite disappointed with these leggings, they don’t fit very well, the glossy material fits very loosely which I don’t like.

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I really like this top, I normally don’t wear stuff that is as open at the top as i have a semi-hairy chest. But guess who shaved, ’twas me! And I have to say that in my opinion it is much nicer being hairless. I going to have to invest in a proper razor.

I'm a bit hit or miss with this top, I do like it, but when i bought it i though it would go with the black top, but it doesn't really. I do think it could look nice on me if I had the right thing to wear it with. Anyone have any suggestions?

I’m a bit hit or miss with this top, I do like it, but when i bought it i though it would go with the black top, but it doesn’t really. I do think it could look nice on me if I had the right thing to wear it with. Anyone have any suggestions?

I also got a few other smaller things such as makeup brushes and foundation. I was quite looking forward to the new foundation. I’ve been wanting to try contouring for a while now and you need foundation that’s a shade lighter than your skin and a shade darker. Turns out though that darker shade I bought is actually like the perfect tone for my skin, so the contouring won’t really work. On the plus side though the darker foundation looks really good on my skin on its own so I’m pleased with that.

I know how un-practical fake nails are, but my god do I love them, I can’t stop looking at hands. I know come Friday I’m going to hate having to take them off. That’s of course if I can get them off, I’m a little worried that I’ve stuck them on a little bit too well. I didn’t think it would be that big a problem as on several occasion I’ve heard other girls complaining about how easily they fall off. I guess worst-case scenario (if worst is the right word) is that I’ll be having a conversation with my flatmate about my trans status. Which who know may be a good thing, I guess I’ll find out on Friday.

Any-who I’m just enjoying getting to be Keira, I’ve said it before but it really is crazy how much happier, content and relaxed I feel when I get to me Keira. It’s like something inside me just melts I’m planning to enjoy it as much as I can, because I know the Keira withdrawal is going to be pretty bad this time.

Peach out guys

Keira xxx

New Clothes & Other thoughts

If I’ve realised anything this weekend it’s that need/want more clothes as I can basically only wear the few items I own, it kind of limits the looks I can have. So I’ve picked out a few items that are potentially in my price range come payday. Granted I wouldn’t be able to afford them all at once, but perhaps I could gradually pick up a few items over the next few months. All the clothes are from H&M and would seem that I’m quite liking dark and muted colours at the moment. Oh and on a side note (and I hope not to sound to braggy or big headed but I’m really pleased with my figure, If I wear quite slim fitting clothes and (cough, cough stuff a bra) from the shoulders down I totally think I could pass as a girl.

The clothes I’ve picked feel a little boring and safe to me, they’re all quite same-y. I even purposefully skipped over a few things that I really liked because I own similar ones already. Perhaps I need to be a little more adventurous? The trouble is as I’m still in the closet and order all my stuff online it’s not like I can spend a day shopping and trying on things I wouldn’t usually buy. Maybe I just already have a style and know what I like. I’ve decided that I really like tank tops, but only with a cardigan or something over the top. I feel quite exposed with my arms bare, maybe it’s just because I’m not use to it, or because part of me still feels quite vulnerable when I dress as a girl. I find myself pulling my cardigan around me when I go in to the kitchen as the blinds don’t shut and I’m paranoid one of the neighbours will see me. It feels less obvious that I’m wearing girl clothes when I do this for some reason.   

I’ve also been playing around with makeup again, I still don’t own a lot nor am I particular good at applying it (really don’t have the hand eye coordination for eye liner) but I can see a bit of a girl starting to come out. All in all, that coupled with the figure thing, I’m feeling pretty happy with myself. 

 

Anywho here are some of the items I picked out.

For those days when you just have to be a French Mime. I really like tops with long sleeves and a low cut waist. I  actually have a guys leather jacket that absolutely love that is designed the same way, i.e. long sleeves, short waist. I think i've always liked it so much because that's a style I associate with girls and is something guy me can wear without getting strange looks

For those days when you just have to be a French Mime. I really like tops with long sleeves and a low cut waist. I actually have a guys leather jacket that absolutely love that is designed the same way, i.e. long sleeves, short waist. I think i’ve always liked it so much because that’s a style I associate with girls and is something guy me can wear without getting strange looks.

I'm still a little unsure of dresses and what would suit me, but I really like this.

I’m still a little unsure of dresses and what would suit me, but I really like this.

I also like long dangly things and this looks like it would so comfortable just to curl of the sofa and relax in.

I also like long dangly things that kind of just flow around you and this looks like it would so comfortable just to curl of the sofa and relax in.

This isn't a dig at anyone on here, I love it when you guys all comment on my stuff. You are all always really supportive.  This is a dig at people who comment below TV shows I watch and  really don't know what they are talking about.

This isn’t a dig at anyone on here, I love it when you guys comment on my stuff. You are all always really supportive.
This is a dig at people who comment below TV shows I watch and really don’t know what they are talking about. I know I shouldn’t read the comments, but I can’t help myself. I think it’s similar to people who hate watch a TV show.

It's the big buttons that make me love this

It’s the big buttons that make me love this.

H&M Biker Pants

Love the pocket zippers and the fact this this is a total rock chick look.

What I’d Like to Wear Today

What I’d like to wear today today but first a little background. So it’s a warm but rainy day in good old Scotland and I have a teeny tiny bit of a hangover. Which frankly is quite surprising considering I only had like three bottles of beer over a 5 hour period. Just goes to show that I’m a rare breed of Irish who can in fact not handle their drink. Anywho had I the choice/opportunity/money this is what I would be enjoying my handover and shitty TV shows in. Probably going to order takeaway tonight, one last little treat before I go back to work tomorrow.

 

Jersey Top

Jersey Top

Checked Cotton Shirt

Checked Cotton Shirt

I wouldn’t be wearing the shirt buttoned up the entire way. May or may-not have it tucked in. That’s the kind of thing I would need to decide when wearing it.

Strecth Trousers High Waist Front

Stretch Trousers High Waist Front

Strecth Trousers High Waist Back

Stretch Trousers High Waist Back

Converse Ctas Tri Zip Navy Sparkle Wash Side

Converse Ctas Tri Zip Navy Sparkle Wash Side View

Converse Ctas Tri Zip Navy Sparkle Wash Back

Converse Ctas Tri Zip Navy Sparkle Wash Back

It’s the back of these Converse that made me fall in love with them.

East End Purple

East End Purple

My Wish List: Clothes

I’m in a blogging mood today so I thought it might be fun to create a small wish list of some of the things I would buy if money wasn’t an issue and you know I had the body to pull them off. Thought it might also be fun to show how my style in clothing is developing, turns out I like dresses and shoes… that probably isn’t that big a surprise.

 Black Butterfly Floral 50S 60S Rockabilly Vintage Swing Prom Dress


Black Butterfly Floral 50S 60S Rockabilly Vintage Swing Prom Dress

CEXI COUTURE NEW LADIES WOMENS WET LOOK BOW FRONT PEPLUM SHORT SKATER DRESS

CEXI COUTURE NEW LADIES WOMENS WET LOOK BOW FRONT PEPLUM SHORT SKATER DRESS

Spiral - Women - URBAN FASHION - 2in1 Red Ripped Top

Spiral – Women – URBAN FASHION – 2in1 Red Ripped Top

DOMIKA

DOMIKA

LACEY DAYS SHOE

LACEY DAYS SHOE

 

KRISP Ladies Womens Camouflage Print Plain Army Military Cargo Combat Skinny Slim Fit Stretch Jeans Trousers Pants

KRISP Ladies Womens Camouflage Print Plain Army Military Cargo Combat Skinny Slim Fit Stretch Jeans Trousers Pants

It’s a bit of a hodge podge selection of items that don’t really come together to form a whole outfit. Anywho, seems I might be a bit of a punk girl who likes dresses.

Out With the Old and in With the New

HI all, I thought it might be fun to show all the new header photos compared against the old ones. Most of the old photos have a filter put on them, at the time with the original theme of the site it looked alright. For the new theme I’ve favoured a more natural look.

 

The original idea for the photos (and still one in which I’m trying to maintain) is to show the two different sides of me, guy me and girl me. I also wanted to imbue the photos with a bit of my interests and personality.

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A part from just retaking the old photos I’ve also added in some completely new ones. Have a gander.

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My Stuff has Started Arriving

So my first two deliveries arrived today and I’m pretty happy with most of the stuff I purchased. Except for one yellow jumper. When ordering it I didn’t realise that it had this weird necklace thing around the collar. Turns out it’s a bit of an old lady jumper… think I might have the fashion sense of an old lady. Well old lady might be a bit harsh, but I’m pretty sure it’s something my mother would wear. Meh I’ll figure it out, this is all still pretty new to me, my style is still developing. I’m happy with the rest of it though and I can return the jumper so it not really that big of a deal. I also got some new makeup as well. I’ve now got eyeliner and eye shadow, the eye shadow I can (in my opinion) put on ok. Well at least I’m happy with the results, the eyeliner on the other hand… I’m finding tricky, basically I’m blind without my glasses and my hands are nowhere near steady enough to get the affect I want. I’m hoping practice will make perfect. All that’s let to come is a pink vest, which should arrive tomorrow, and pair of Rocket Dog boot (which I’m really looking forward too) on Wednesday. It’s silly how excited I get thinking about it, and agonising it is to wait for the deliveryman show up.

Yeah this is jumper I'm not the keen on.

Yeah this is jumper I’m not the keen on.

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I also got a pair of tights to go along with these.

I also got a pair of tights to go along with these.

Floppy Sock & Alapesha

What! Two posts in one day! Crazy I know.

I thought I’d make a post encompassing all the random thoughts I felt weren’t worth posting about on their own.

 

  1. Today, at work a trans woman came into the store, and I spotted her pretty much instantly even though (in my opinion) she didn’t look overly masculine. I believe if I wasn’t currently exploring my own gender at the moment I probably wouldn’t have suspected at all. However, curious to know if I only spotted her because I’ve been thinking about transsexual stuff pretty much 24\7 lately I asked the girl I was working with if she thought she was transsexual. Her reply was “oh yeah, definitely”. What impressed me most (and to her credit) was how she did not change her attitude or demeanour at all when serving the woman, and in general seemed quite nonchalant about the whole thing. If anything I was probably making it more obvious that I recognised her trans status than my co-worker (even though I tried not to), I was just fascinated. So on the off chance you end up reading this, I whole heartily apologise if I in anyway made you feel uncomfortable, for I suspect that you suspected that I suspected as to whether or not you were a woman. In my opinion you passed quite well, and the two dogs you had with you were adorable.

 

  1. My flat mate is an ass, and I mean that in the nicest way possible, cause he’s actually my best friend. The reason he’s an ass, is because he plays this stupid game called Floppy Sock. The object of Floppy Sock is pull your unsuspecting victims sock half off, so you guessed it, it’s floppy. The problem is my flat mate sucks at his own game and more often than not just pulls the sock right off.  This sadly means, as no one yet knows about my trans status that I can’t have my toenails painted. Which sucks, ‘cause it turns out…

 

  1. I frickin’ love having painted/painting my nails. I like the smell, the slightly cold sensation of the polish being applied and how it looks after. This weekend, because my flatmate has been staying at his girlfriends place, I’ve been able to have my toenails painted, without fear of being “floppy socked”, and it’s been nice. I get enjoyment and just in general feel happier knowing that my toenails are painted even when they’re hidden under socks and shoes. Though for about an hour yesterday I did get pretty paranoid that the polish was going to stain the nails when I had to remove it for work (since I had the flat to myself I also painted my fingernails). I figured a girl would be able to spot the tell tale signs right away, and I’m not ready yet to have to explain all this to people. Luckily it never stained, though I do quite miss having them done. (see below, I think they turned out ok for someone who doesn’t have much practice.)

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  1. Also, I am insanely hairy, it’s very annoying. I shaved the hair on my feet, (gross I know, I don’t really like picturing it either, but I figured if there was ever a bunch of people who would understand the agony that is unwanted hair then it would be you guys (and when I say guys I mean it in the unisex sense, I regularly call girls guys, it’s basically a genderless word to me.)) and it’s frickin’ crazy how quickly it started to grow back. Plus even when it was freshly done you could still see where the hairs use to be… gads. Basically I’m only shaving my feet because as I said I’m insanely hairy and if my legs and chest suddenly developed alapesha overnight people would notice. I have to say though my feet did look much better after. I’m normally pretty iffy about them as I think they’re quite ugly.

 

  1. I don’t know if this is something anyone else will have experienced, (so a comment or two about this would be most appreciated) but I’ve noticed certain opinions that I’ve held as a male change when I think of myself\ future as a girl. For example I’ve never been particularly fond of tattoos, but when I think of my future self as a girl I’m a bit like “yeah I could get a tattoo, I‘d probably really suit one.” I mean it’s not a big deal, just something odd I noticed.

 

  1. I use far (far) too many parentheses when I write. It’s like Something Happened on this blog.  (That was a little literary joke for people.)

 

  1. All in all, I’ve had a pretty girly weekend by myself, (which I very much needed) I got to paint my nails, have a facemask, play about with some light makeup (I own hardly any at the moment) and wear nice clothes.

Painting Nails

Painting Nails

Painted my nails for the first time in years a few days ago. Turns out I’m pretty naff at it. It’s cool though I’ll practice more when I get the chance.

Think my main problem (apart from lack of a steady hand) was that I didn’t give them long enough to dry and then chopped up a bunch of fruit for a smoothie… In hindsight not my smartest move.