A Best Friend and Driving in Russia

So no doubt many if not all have you have heard about the draconian law recently passed in good old mother Russia that bans transgender people from holding a driving licence. Well I thankfully don’t live in Russia regardless of the fact that I can’t actually drive.

Last night I was on my way with my flatmate and his girlfriend to another friends house for a few drinks (yay the student lifestyle where it’s socially acceptably to get a little drunk on a Sunday night) when we inexplicably got on to the topic of Russia’s trans driving ban. Needless to say we where all against it and thought it was pretty stupid. The subject moved on to how the law covers anyone with a mental health issues, (geez even writing that made me a little angry, I currently fighting the urge not to make this post a little bit ranty) when my flatmate and best friend said that “this isn’t going to be popular opinion, but transsexuals will find any reason to be depressed. Even if they didn’t want to live as the opposite sex they’d still find a reason to be depressed.” I can’t describe how hurt I was by this, I mean yeah he doesn’t know I’m trans, but he does know that on occasion I suffer from depression. I mean this guy is my best friend one day I’m potentially going to have to tell him that I want to live openly as a woman. This was a bit of knockback, just the thought that he finds the whole thing a bit stupid. I’m even a little bit upset with myself that I didn’t say anything, that I didn’t defend myself and trans people everywhere. But at that moment I was just more scared that if I did say anything he’d know I was trans. Which is stupid itself, I mean why would he? I guess I’m just a bit annoyed that I let my fear get the better of me. Who knows, I’m sure he’d act differently if he knew I was trans. Maybe this goes to show the importance of education on trans issues.

WP_20150112_001On a more positive note I kickass at Cards Against Humanity, which I think either makes me funny or a terrible person… maybe both.

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New Clothes and Melting

So huzza, my flatmate went home on Tuesday and isn’t back until Friday, so guess who gets to girl out for the next few days? That’s right, me! So I’m very happy. My clothes arrived on Tuesday and my makeup arrived on Wednesday albeit in three different deliveries even though they were all from the same place. So that was a little annoying cause it ate in to Keira time. Turns out that I’m even too scared to let deliverymen see me in girls clothes. So that’s something I’m going to have to work on. Thought I was quite relieved that I wasn’t girl-ing out as two workmen arrived to fit heat detectors, which took about an hour so I’m quite glad I wasn’t in girl mode, as that would have been a little too stressful for me to handle. So I mentioned in my last post that applied fake nail and that they drastically slowed down my typing speed a frustrating amount. Well good news, I’m still wearing them as I write this. Turns out I just needed a bit of practice.

So the new additions to my wardrobe, I’m happy with some and a little disappointed with others, but I guess you’re always going to run that risk when you buy stuff online and can’t try them on first.

I've wanted a pair of red heels for ages and now I finally have some!

I’ve wanted a pair of red heels for ages and now I finally have some!

I just cropped this photo from the website as I'm currently wearing them and couldn't be bothered taking them off for a picture. I really like how they look on and the fit well.

I just cropped this photo from the website as I’m currently wearing them and couldn’t be bothered taking them off for a picture. I really like how they look on and the fit well.

Yeah, I'm quite disappointed with these leggings, they don't fit very well, the glossy material fits very loosely which I don't like.

Yeah, I’m quite disappointed with these leggings, they don’t fit very well, the glossy material fits very loosely which I don’t like.

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I really like this top, I normally don’t wear stuff that is as open at the top as i have a semi-hairy chest. But guess who shaved, ’twas me! And I have to say that in my opinion it is much nicer being hairless. I going to have to invest in a proper razor.

I'm a bit hit or miss with this top, I do like it, but when i bought it i though it would go with the black top, but it doesn't really. I do think it could look nice on me if I had the right thing to wear it with. Anyone have any suggestions?

I’m a bit hit or miss with this top, I do like it, but when i bought it i though it would go with the black top, but it doesn’t really. I do think it could look nice on me if I had the right thing to wear it with. Anyone have any suggestions?

I also got a few other smaller things such as makeup brushes and foundation. I was quite looking forward to the new foundation. I’ve been wanting to try contouring for a while now and you need foundation that’s a shade lighter than your skin and a shade darker. Turns out though that darker shade I bought is actually like the perfect tone for my skin, so the contouring won’t really work. On the plus side though the darker foundation looks really good on my skin on its own so I’m pleased with that.

I know how un-practical fake nails are, but my god do I love them, I can’t stop looking at hands. I know come Friday I’m going to hate having to take them off. That’s of course if I can get them off, I’m a little worried that I’ve stuck them on a little bit too well. I didn’t think it would be that big a problem as on several occasion I’ve heard other girls complaining about how easily they fall off. I guess worst-case scenario (if worst is the right word) is that I’ll be having a conversation with my flatmate about my trans status. Which who know may be a good thing, I guess I’ll find out on Friday.

Any-who I’m just enjoying getting to be Keira, I’ve said it before but it really is crazy how much happier, content and relaxed I feel when I get to me Keira. It’s like something inside me just melts I’m planning to enjoy it as much as I can, because I know the Keira withdrawal is going to be pretty bad this time.

Peach out guys

Keira xxx

Fake Nails and Typing

So my plan was for this evening was to write a post about all the new stuff I got and what happened to me today. However i decided to try out fake nails and they slow down my typing to the point where it’s frustrating. So I’m just going to wait until I take them off on Friday. On the plus side they look fantastic! They are very much a novelty, but I’m enjoying them.

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Lingering Sentiment from the New Year

Perhaps it’s lingering sentiment from the New Year, but I’m feeling pretty confident that 2015 is going to be my year. It’s very cliché, I know, but I’m feeling positive and that’s after spending 6 days at home, which always ends in me feeling a little down. Nothing bad ever happens my family just stress me out and not because they do anything wrong. It’s really related to my own hang-ups and how I’ve always sort of felt like the black sheep in the family, like I don’t fit in.

Any-who on a more fun/upbeat note I got a bit of money for Christmas and I’ve decided to treat myself and buy some new clothes and a pair of shoes. I’m excited about it all, but I’ve wanted a pair of red heels for ages and I’ve finally found a pair I like and can afford, so yay. I’ve also so ordered some more make up, I’ve been looking at contouring a lot online and decided that I’m going to give it a try. It feels like the next step, as I’ve gotten quite bold with the amount of make up I’m wearing in my daily life. It’s progressed from clear mascara and some concealer under my eyes to that plus a light amount of foundation everyday. I wouldn’t say wearing make up everyday makes me look more feminine, but it does make me feel more feminine. I’m hoping that contouring (if I can get good at it) will allow me to see a notable change in my appearance.

My flatmate is talking about going home this coming week, and obviously I hope he does, just so I can get a bit of Keira time, especially since I have clothes arriving on Tuesday. Needless to say, I’m going to want play about with my new additions to my wardrobe. WP_20150104_001Between clothes, shoes and make up I now understand why girls’ rooms tend to be so cluttered, we really do need a lot of stuff and it all takes up space. I’ve had to do a bit of rearranging to make it more practical. After all since I’m wearing make up everyday now, it was getting a bit annoying always have to get in out of the box in my wardrobe. So it has now been moved the much more convenient place of the top drawer of my desk (which you tell by the photo needs a bit of organising). So I guess if you wanted to read too much into it, you could see as an example as to how my life and daily routine are evolving because of Keira.

Any-who thanks for reading and Happy New Year everyone xxx