Q: How do you manage dysphoria?
A: I don’t think I’ve ever properly felt dysphoria, sure there are things about my body I don’t like, for example my ears are too big and my feet are quite ugly, but I never associated this with being in the wrong body. I mean after all doesn’t everyone have things they don’t like about their body? Things they wish they could change?
One interesting thing I’ve noticed since I’ve started exploring my gender identity and something that could fall under the definition of dysphoria is that I’ve started to get annoyed by my penis, it’s been getting in the way. You know ruining the look of clothes and so on, and I’m pretty sucky at tucking, I find in a bit of a burden having to do it. In the past female friends of mine have commented on how they thing penis’ are ugly, before I never really gave it much thought. Lately I have to say I agree with them, I’m find my own penis more and more ugly and I’m sort of beginning to wish it wasn’t there.
I’m also quite bothered by my jawline, It’s quite big and masculine, I think it’s going to being one of my bigger give always if I ever do begin living as a girl.
As far as handling them, I haven’t really had to; my negative feelings towards them haven’t been so strong as to cause any real problems for me.
The fact that I’ve never really felt a sense of real dysphoria is one of the reason I doubt if I’m really transsexual.