Ok, so that just happened. I decided over the weekend that I was ready to take my first official steps in exploring my gender identity, which in the UK is to contact your GP about a referral to a Gender Identity Clinic. So bright and early this morning I began phoning my local practice in order to book an appointment. I knew before hand that my local practice is normally quite busy and expected to be on hold for a while, (I was) and for the appointment to be made later in the week (it wasn’t). When I did get through to the receptionist at 09:30 and explained that my situation wasn’t an emergency, she informed me that because I live near by that an appointment was available in 15 minutes time. I took the appointment, but it caught me of guard. I hadn’t expected it to happen so soon, and in order to make the appointment I basically had to leave my flat right away. Although I had been planning what I was going to say over the weekend, I had expected to have more time to prepare myself mentally for explaining my feelings. As this would be the first time I’ve told a person face to face. Having more time would have had advantages and drawbacks. Primarily, locking down what I was going to say, with the drawback being I would have psyched myself out by over thinking it and ended up pretty stressed over the next few days. So all in all it’s probably for the best it happened so quickly.
Overall I ‘m happy to have done it, even though I feel I didn’t explain myself as well as I would have liked. This was due to nerves and the fact that I hadn’t prepared myself for the types of questions the doctor was going ask. (Which in hindsight was pretty silly on my part, as she asked fairly standard questions given the situation). Other than that I’m happy I did it, and it went pretty well the doctor was nice and she seemed understanding. As it stands now, I am being referred to a local psychologist, and not a Gender Identity Clinic. I’m ok with this, and I think it happen because I explained that I wasn’t 100% sure if I am transsexual and that I basically just wanted help figuring it out. All that is left for me to do is wait for the psychologist to contact me in order arrange a date and time for my first meeting. Just wish I knew how long this normally takes. Whatever happens after today at least I can be happy with the fact I’m making progress. I’m moving forward.
Questions She Asked
- How long have I been feeling like this?
- How does it make me feel?
- Have I ever gone out dressed as a girl?
- Who have I told?
- Have I ever wanted to hurt myself?
- Am I in a relationship?
- Am I employed or a student?
- What I wanted to get from a referral?